Walking these razor blades of emotions,
Trying to find the right devotions,
Cutting deeply and moving sleepily,
Barely moving but always soothing,
Feeling and breathing slow in the crisp cold air,
It was such a beautiful night,
Looking out over a black pit of despair,
It seemed like the world wasn't fair,
Or like no one really cared,
But the truth was at the pinnacle,
That what left us cynical,
But we know the truth,
That where we are we can always be calm,
Safe in the knowing,
That where ever we're going,
We have people who we trust,
Who will never look at us in disgust,
For those things we feel such shame,
You shouldn't feel that way,
One day soon,
I'll see you underneath the moon,
Looking so beautiful,
So perfect.

Let all your fears and suffering drift away,
Some play way up high,
How is it i have a castle in the sky,
I moved along slowly scared of the next step,
Wondering if this was going to be my last breathe,
If id finally see my death,
I should be scared but I'm not because of all the things i have thought,
They slowed my life and saved my day its all the little things in a way,
But in the end its just one day,
When the moon is rising and the moon is full,
I'll wash away my sins just like you.

Requiem of a memory

Dancing in the rain,
You drive me insane,
I don't know if I always complain,
I wish I could dance on the sun,
We would always have so much fun,
We don't always see the truth,
And sometimes I act uncouth,
I don't know how to say it;
I just want to tell you,
That everything you do,
Generally makes me smile,
Even if its just for a little while,
I know how annoying i can be,
And I hope you can trust me,
When I say I'm sorry,
I don't mean to be a fool,
Sometimes I am a tool,
I move through the time of my life,
Rolling the dice and risking it all,
When I have to fall,
I'll just pick myself up and stand tall,
I know that this probably makes no sense,
But where is the fun in that,
It's like this and that,
I hope you're in a more talkative mood,
Because I really like to talk to you,
Even when its nothing serious,
Just general nonsense,
That make sense to us,
Its always a plus really,
Knowing you can act so silly.

I really like this one.

We walk in the night,

Hoping we will see through the starlight and walk into twilight,

Knowing everything will be alright,

It's just one night,

When we will be outright,

I just hope that one night,

You realise im right,

And we will stand in the moonlight,

Without a care in the world,

While time swirls and bends,

Until one day it ends,

And we stand forever,

In this twisting nether of our own reality.

This is the thoughts of unknowing,
Where is the time flowing?
Why am I here without a purpose,
How can I dance my days away,
It's like I wander aimlessly through the landscape of my own mind,
Not knowing what I'm going to find.
Some days I stand alone,
Occasionally we stand together,
All I know is U cant last like this forever,
I'll escape my mind with what i find,
It'll be my treasure now and forever.

I wrote this for a friend, shame how things go.

You've helped me while i stand in the shadows of my own self loathing,

You've helped me,

Without even knowing,

You're the light in my darkest fears,

You're always there when I'm shedding my tears,

But I'll dance this tune,

Just for you,

I'll sing this melody so slow and true,

For everything you've ever done,

Always know I will always love you.

Diminished Lights

Dancing in the light of the sun,
Wondering where the winds gone,
Its always so much easier to see,
When the sun shines on me,
I miss it when the wind blows,
I forget which way to go,
Or where my destiny lies,
Like some mediocre disguise,
I want to soar in the sky,
Burn through the wind,
Pretend that I am nothing,
Just for a little while,
I want to disappear,
Act as if we were never actually here,
Burst through the clouds,
And be so proud,
I'll dance on the sun,
And then when its all begun,
We will sing to the stars,
And wipe away all of our scars,
I'll slip away forever,
And it will feel like I was never here.

Monster Inside

We are who we are,
We build up a shell to hide us,
We hide from the world,
We hide from ourselves,
We never know we will be,
Or how our life will turn out,
I kill myself everyday,
I start anew and then kill it,
I'm not the real me,
I am a copy of a memory,
An ideal of a concept,
I am a fake,
My wall is so thick,
I can't even penetrate it,
I'm stuck inside my head,
A caged animal dying,
I can't remember where the light is,
I can't remember what the wind is,
I can't remember what it is I did,
I trapped myself,
I killed myself to grow,
The darkness is absolute,
I wouldn't ever dispute,
Breaking down this wall will never happen,
I'm trapped by my own means,
I'm going to die in a cage,
We can't break out,
I need to start from the inside,
I need to start from the outside,
I need to meet myself in the middle,
I need to remember myself,
What I stand for,
Why I am who I am,
What kind of monster am I?

Shaken World

Spinning tales,
Spinning desire,
Its all dangerous like playing with fire,
Its just a matter of how you work the weaves,
Makes it show how it will be conceived,
Its all about killing your sorrows,
Wish that you knew what would come tomorrow,
Its an end of a wish,
The delicacy of that forbidden dish,
You'll stomp on the ground,
While you run around,
Its just a matter of desire, 
When you eat the fire,
The ground will shake,
As if it is awake,
You'll be thought of as the world shaker,
And be curious about its maker,
You'll run the breadth of your sanity,
With barely a thought for humanity,
You'll lose your self in the desolation,
And live in complete isolation,
Then you'll hear the deep beat,
And jump up onto your feet,
And sing the triumphant song,
Because now the world shaker is gone.

time for some spam...

well i just decided that i am going to post all the old poetry i wrote that i still have without going and getting my journal... so yeah, next few posts are old poems :)

well...

so it seems i managed to do something stupid make an agreement with a good friend of mine to write something for her, by her birthday which i found out is on the friday coming so it seems that i have alot to do this week...
wonderful.

rants of a first kind.

Well, i guess i may aswell write something, im not entirely sure what to write though, Ok im looking for a film to watch and i just found out that V For Vendetta is only rated at 8.2/10 on IMDB. HOW CAN THIS BE?! That film is amazing, everytime i watch it i love it, the ending is fantastic, the plot is incredible and to top it off it even has Stephen Fry, the man is a genius and hes funny. And because my friend seems to think hes a funny person aswell he just suggested Justin Beiber never say never. I honestly dont get why so many actors who try for years cant get a film yet some stuck up little child who sounds like a girl, cant write his own songs and hangs out with alot of grown men should get his own film, its like 50 cent got his own film, hes a terrible rapper aswell as a terrible actor however, i must say eminems? i cant spell his name, his 8 Mile film i thought was rather good. but thats enough ranting for now, i need to concentrate on finding a film to watch. failing that, an anime.

Peace.

No name as of yet.

The silence is killing my ears,

Without noise time doesn't move,

Each breathe doesn't come,

You suffocate without weight,

Your lungs bleed out,

Without a single doubt,

You see the end close in,

You remember every sin,

The things you wanted to forget,

Things caught in the net of time,

You used to feel so sublime,

Each heart beat in time,

A tick of a clock in your mind,

Counting down 'til the end,

When your life will end,

You can't see the bend in the road,

where its waiting,

Ready to grab hold,

Pull you under,

Tear your soul asunder,

Watch you cry out in pain,

Without any shame.