Monster Inside

We are who we are,
We build up a shell to hide us,
We hide from the world,
We hide from ourselves,
We never know we will be,
Or how our life will turn out,
I kill myself everyday,
I start anew and then kill it,
I'm not the real me,
I am a copy of a memory,
An ideal of a concept,
I am a fake,
My wall is so thick,
I can't even penetrate it,
I'm stuck inside my head,
A caged animal dying,
I can't remember where the light is,
I can't remember what the wind is,
I can't remember what it is I did,
I trapped myself,
I killed myself to grow,
The darkness is absolute,
I wouldn't ever dispute,
Breaking down this wall will never happen,
I'm trapped by my own means,
I'm going to die in a cage,
We can't break out,
I need to start from the inside,
I need to start from the outside,
I need to meet myself in the middle,
I need to remember myself,
What I stand for,
Why I am who I am,
What kind of monster am I?