I threw everything away,
I tried to escape,
The light suffocated me,
I hid in the darkness,
I sold my soul for the darkness,
Nothing could break the cage,
Everything was a shadow,
Why did it end this way?

You had so much potential,
You never really figured out what was essential,
You tried your best,
We fought harder than the rest,
Sometimes things don't work the way they should,
But thats why we need to try harder,
And push ourselves further,
Because if we don't fail,
We'll never truly succeed.

anger management.

Okay, so like 90% of the time I'm a master of the zen arts when it comes to keeping my anger in check however, those 10% of times seem to crop up and make me rage so hard that it's like a forest fire, seemingly going for days without any sign of slowing down or completely stopping, today is one of those days. I was having a great day, watching shows and listening to music while i played video games, something i do most days because that's my prerogative its something i thoroughly enjoy doing I'm not prone to raging like what the media seems to think, where everyone goes into a berserker rage because they learnt to in a video game, that whole convoluted mess is a gigantic pile of horse shit. In fact that is probably one of the biggest lies the media forces onto people who don't know any better. Playing games is a way to relax, relieve stress etc, i mean what better way to make yourself feel better than to hop onto a game and beat something senseless? Sure sometimes you will mess up and fail, but its a game you just restart and try again. Its beautiful, the main problem is that some people, not a great deal depending on which gaming community you're in can take you're great mood and drop a fat steaming shit on it, this is what has happened to me today, TWICE in the space of three hours. THIS has made me angry, why? because people cannot learn to calm the fuck down and chill the fuck out. ITS A GAME FOR FUCK SAKES. I realise that its hypocritical of me to say that while getting angry at them, however they managed to rub me the wrong way, the second more because i was angry because of the first, who just seemed to be the most incompetent idiot i have ever come across, i mean i've played games with people who cant even speak the same fucking language as me and it has made me rage less. because they aren't so fucking stupid as to not be able to understand simple concepts. Like quick ingame signals to go somewhere likes its that hard? no, any tom dick or harry could master something that simple. however some people take it a step further, i wont call them a "troll" because they weren't they don't have the BRAIN POWER to know that a troll is infact a monster that dwells under a bridge. Not this whole idea of someone who pesters people on the internet and goes HUR HUR I R TROLL DERP. bollocks its a fucking stupid dunce thing that only 12 year olds and people who think they're being clever are, the kinds of people i would gladly beat in the head with a brick or large stone. This isn't because of video games though, no this is because i'm sick to my back teeth of the stupid and incompetent breeding. its something that shouldn't be allowed. It just waters down the gene pool. And they become too stupid to realise that fucking their sister/brother/mother/father/cousin isn't something you should do. Sure back in the day, the royal families did it, but just look how great they've turned out. You'd think people would learn a fucking lesson, but no. Even when beaten into someone somethings just cannot be learnt. But if i'm completely honest, I've slowly creeping to the point where i'm just going to become a hermit and tell everyone to get the fuck out because this shit is BEYOND ridiculous. But all in all, the whole thing is like trying to catch a storm in a teacup. regardless of how hard you try, you're just wasting your own time, and everyone elses. So with that last final note, I bid you a due and i hope any who read this, have a better day than i. Goodbye.

as he realised his life was coming to an end he gripped the hilt of his sword, feeling the flow of power rush into his soul he smiled. The feeling of pure energy ripping him apart from the inside out he now knew what it would be like to reach his limit and release his untapped potential, nothing would remain of him but a mere legacy and a patch of scorched earth he wished he had been able to leave more behind, but the fates were cruel and unusual they sought to make him die to a myth in an unknown place but he would destroy the myth and create a seat upon the throne of the gods for himself so he could at the very least, watch the world from above and guide those who might follow in his decimated footsteps.

He laughed, he was ready for the end to come. Nothing could stop him, not the gods themselves could stop him from reaching the heights he had always wanted to attain, as he let out a sigh of relief he looked to the sky and stared directly into the sun, and felt drops of rain fall onto his face on a clear day. Now was his time, he looked at the being before him a twisted shadow of grotesque features and spindly arms with nails like the edges of blades, he pulled his sword from its sheathe somehow revealing his sword after so many years of peace seemed like a fitting end for the man, calming his breathe he channeled his fury back into the blade making it reverberate until it glowed like it was touched by moonlight, then he burst forward attacking head on, the creature swung one massive claw at him using its full height to give its blow as much force as possible, barely able to block sparks flew from his sword as he continued to run at the beast, closing in he stopped and swung his blade cleaving the beast in the mid-rift and then his blade exploded in light wiping out everything for miles around.

I'll never be the man you wanted me to be,
I'll fall off the world and swim in the stars,
I crashed so hard I lost myself,
what is it that you want from me?
Where is the world taking me,
I don't know where I'm headed,
I'm alone and scared,
I tried my best to hold the weight on my shoulders,
But my soul broke on impact,
When was the last time we had any contact,
So many years ago,
We had no where to go,
So we sat together in the darkness waiting for a light,
Little did we know you held it tight,
So hard you dulled it to the barest spark,
We should have let it go.

If this world was to end tomorrow,
I'd walk around the world today,
Just to be with you when we end,
Sometimes things are bigger than ourselves,
We have to push through the hard times,
Stand tall with our own strength,
And curse the world for making us weak,
We'll cut everything down in its prime,
We'll become the strongest,
And any weaknesses left we'll cover,
That's what friends are for.

The weakness of one will always be covered by the strength of the many.
Sometimes, I wish things were different.
No one believes this anymore.

Repeating the same circuit for the hundredth time,
Nothing ever seems to change on this line,
We flow along a non-existent path,
How has anyone managed to last,
It's a game of Russian roulette,
Where every chamber is loaded,
Theres no way to win,
you just have to wait until its your turn,
and hope you pull out the dud.